19th February 2013

Dearest LB & GY,

First of all, I would like to say a tremendous Thank You for a blessed and joyful CNY celebration with my family. As always, it was great and a lot of fun. And most of all, I'm happy to see my loved ones happy. I may not be able to vouch for all.... but nevertheless, Thank You.

Today, for my prayers, I would like to have a bit of a conversation as something is disturbing me. I am afraid that.... that this year is the last CNY celebration I get to have with my Grandma. I honestly don't think I am ready to lose her and I don't think I ever will be. Not her, not anyone for that matter. Just thinking about it had got me feeling really rather down and not positive nor perky.

I don't understand the concept of letting go in that way and it hurts me deeply when someone I love departs. I am not sure when I will start understanding this concept, but I know for now, I am just not ready. Do you think I am selfish? Or am I just being stubborn in accepting your teachings?

Today, therefore, I am going to make a few very special prayers. I pray that you will bless me (for my own selfish reasons, I know)... and all my loved ones with many more years of joyful reunion and celebrations. I sincerely hope you will grant me this joy. As you already know, family is very important to me and for some reason, I like them intact. Please, LB & GY. I pray for your blessings.

I pray also for your guidance in blessing me with wisdom and strength and clarity to face my life's journey ahead. To guide me always onto the path of unwavering faith. I am not sure why I feel my faith is just not strong, or maybe it is I who isn't strong. So, please guide me.

Other than that, aside from the usual prayers that I always make, which I will resume again tomorrow, I pray also always, for my family - both immediate and extended, my loved ones, my friends and all those in need to always be safe, sound and healthy and for them to live long and prosperous lives. Please bless them with good health, longevity and prosperity and may they always be happy, and that everything goes smoothly for them.

Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Eileen

20th February 2013 - Additional

Dearest LB & GY,

I was suddenly overcome by emotions and I am suddenly missing my Por Por very much.
I'm not even sure I have recovered from the loss. How long a time does it take for me to recover? I thought I was ok? How come?

I don't understand.

But I hate thinking about the fact that I will never hear her voice again or see her or hug her.

I don't like this feeling, LB & GY.

Please help me.

Please guide me.

Just remembering her is bringing me tears. Why? I am remembering happy memories of her. But I'm crying. I don't know why.

I've finished my period. So why am I feeling like this. This can't be PMS.

I'm so afraid of seeing her photos, because I'm afraid of the pain of missing her and the reality of never seeing her again.

Please help me.

Eileen

20th February 2013

Dearest LB & GY,

Not really understanding why my stamina is so bad just after 10 days of rest. Hmmm....
But nevertheless, happy that I lasted.

I am feeling much better today, and was wondering if my prayers had actually helped. I need to stop questioning, I guess. But I'm trying to be sensitive to my feelings and my thoughts. Please guide me.

Please bless my Por Por's soul and let her be reunited with my Kung Kung and may the both of them gain eternal peace. Thank you.

Thank you for blessing my husband and I with great opportunities here in YG. Please do continue blessing and guiding the both of us and let us both get the big break that we've been waiting for. Please also guide us and bless us in this journey and let everything go smoothly for the both of us. Thank you.

I am continuously thankful for a life that has treated me and all my loved ones very well. I am thankful for being such a privileged kid with so much great abundances in my life. I am thankful for all the love, opportunities and great experiences. I am thankful for the food on my table, clothes on my back and roofs over my head. I am thankful that all my prayers are always heard and answered. I know I am a lucky and blessed child. Life is great indeed.

I pray that my family - both immediate and extended, my loved ones and friends are always safe, sound and healthy and that they all live long and prosperous lives. I pray that they are always happy and everything goes smoothly for them. Please bless them with good health and longevity and let them enjoy all of life's greatest moments and pleasures always. Thank you.

I pray that my husband's career continues sailing smoothly for him and that he gets financial growth, career advancements and great opportunities from everywhere he looks. I pray that with your blessings and guidance, everything goes perfectly well for him at work and that he gets the big break that he's been waiting for. I pray also that with your blessing and guidance, he is inspired to achieve all of his dreams. Thank you.

I pray that all of my businesses continue flourishing financially and growing successfully within this year and that all projects under each individual business are planned perfectly, implemented successfully and executed beautifully. I pray that my communication and understanding with all my clients are great and smooth always. I pray also that all the different partners that I work with continue working cohesively together as a team and support one another unconditionally towards achieving our goals and that we all reap the financial rewards of our efforts and passion within this year. Thank you.

I pray that the children at LF, HH, HT and NM are always surrounded by love, joy and happiness and that they all grow up strong, healthy and to be wonderful and inspiring people. I pray that they are always enjoying all of life's greatest moments and adventures. I pray also for your blessings and guidance in helping me in my commitment to help these kids have a better future. Thank you.

I pray for your continuous guidance and blessings in helping me become a better person - kinder, more compassionate, more patient, more understanding, more inspiring, one who thinks good, feels good and does good always. I pray for your guidance in helping me gain wisdom, clarity and strength in making the best and rightest decisions for all of my endeavours and stay true to myself. I pray also for your blessings and guidance in helping me stay focused, be at peace and calm, stay positive and have unwavering faith always. Thank you.

I pray for the world to be a better place and for humankind to grow kinder and more compassionate everyday.

Thank you.

Eileen

8th February 2013 - 18th February 2013

Dearest LB & GY,

I'm saying my prayers in advanced in view of my travels for the CNY. I would like to pray for a blessed, happy and joyful celebration and reunion with all my family and loved ones. I thank you in advanced for this blessings. I really look forward to spending time with all my loved ones.

Please bless my Por Por's soul and let her be reunited with my Kung Kung. It is my first CNY without her. Please tell her I miss her too. Thank you.

Thank you for blessing my husband and I with great opportunities here in YG. Please do continue blessing and guiding us and let us both get the big break that we've been waiting for. Please also bless and guide us and let the journey be a smooth one for us both. Thank you.

Please bless my friends and all those who are in need at the moment with miracles and help them stay strong and positive always. Thank you.

I am continuously thankful and grateful for a life that has treated me and my loved ones very well. I am thankful for a privileged life that is full of great abundances. I am thankful for all the love, experiences and great opportunities that come my way always. I am thankful for the food on my table, clothes on my back and roofs over my head. I am thankful that all my prayers are always heard and answered. I know I am a lucky and blessed child. Life is great indeed.

I pray that my family - both immediate and extended, loved ones and friends are always safe, sound and healthy and that they all live long and prosperous lives. I pray that they are always happy and everything goes smoothly for them. I pray also that they always enjoy all of life's greatest moments and pleasures. Thank you.

I pray that my husband's career continues sailing smoothly for him and that he gets financial growth, career advancements and great opportunities from everywhere. I know he's going through a bit of a rough patch with work, so please do bless him and guide him and let everything go perfectly well and smooth for him. Please guide him and bless him and let him get the big break that he's been waiting for. I pray also that with your blessings and guidance, he is inspired to achieve all of his dreams. Thank you.

I pray that all of my businesses continue flourishing financially and growing successfully within this year and that all projects under each individual business are planned perfectly, implemented successfully and executed beautifully. I pray also that my communication and understanding with all my clients are great and smooth always. I pray too that all the different partners that I work with continue striving to support one another unconditionally towards achieving our goals and that we all reap the financial rewards of our efforts and passion within this year. Thank you.

I pray that the children at HT, LG, HH and NM are always surrounded by love, joy and happiness and that they all grow up strong, healthy and to be wonderful and inspiring people. I pray that they always enjoy all of life's greatest pleasures and adventures. I pray for your blessings in helping me in my commitment to help these kids have a better future. Please guide me. Thank you.

I pray for your continuous blessings and guidance in helping me become a better person - kinder, more compassionate, more patient, more understanding, more inspiring, one who thinks good, does good and feels good always. I pray for your guidance in helping me gain clarity and wisdom in making the best and rightest decisions in all of my endeavours and stay true to myself. I pray for your blessings and guidance in helping me stay focused, be at peace and calm, stay positive and have unwavering faith always. Thank you.

I pray for the world to be a better place and for humankind to grow kinder and more compassionate everyday.

Thank you.

Eileen

 

7th Feb 2013

Dearest LB & GY,

I am thinking today is my worse PMS day in a long time. I get it, I'm reminding myself to work with compassion. But I think I am seriously lacking in patience. I try to tell myself - that the poor dude is just trying to make a living. Anyway, I have 2 more days to try with him. Maybe I just miss my regular taxi guy. He was good. Definitely so good. Thank you for giving me the chance to meet with him.

I would like to do my prayer of Thanks today. I sometimes feel it helps when my mind is not at peace, it helps to say my prayer of thanks. Please kindly guide me.

Of course, I am grateful and thankful for a life that has treated me and my loved ones very well. I live in luxury and I know I shouldn't complain about anything at all. There is actually nothing in my life to complain about. Please guide me to do the right thing. I am, really am grateful for a blessed and abundant life.

I am thankful for the abundance of great opportunities and experiences you have showered upon me and my husband here in YG. I cherish the moments and I cherish the experiences. Please continue blessing and guiding the both of us so that we share these experiences and opportunities with people who are not as privileged as we are and we share our learnings and knowledge with yet more of others.

I am thankful, so thankful for the love I have in my life. I have love all over and I should learn to always rule my life with compassion and love. Sometimes, my anger is caused by frustrations and I know most of the time, it is by pure impatience. Please guide me to do right. Please do, do guide me. Show me a sign. Please.

I am thankful for all the food on my table, clothes on my back and roofs over my head. I know I am really blessed and lucky. I never have to know what starvation is, nor sleeping on the streets nor not having clothes to wear. On the contrary, I have an abundance of it all. Please guide me to share with open hear and open arms with people who need these more than me.

Over and above that, please let this PMS go away. I want to be a good person - always and every moment. I do not want to be affected by my frustrations or impatience. Please guide me. I want to be a good person, think good thoughts and do good deeds. Please guide me.

Thank you.

Eileen
 

6th February 2013

Dearest LB & GY,

Since I am doing my prayers in advanced, I'd like to say my prayer of Thanks.

I am thankful for all that I have. I am.

I am first and foremost thankful for being blessed with a great family who showers me with unconditional love. They had provided for me and given me a great foundation in which I can jump off of and pursue my dreams. That I am so thankful for. I am also thankful for more love, from my husband, my friends and all my loved ones. Please continue blessing me and also guiding me to show my love whole-heartedly and also to guide me to think with compassion and rule my life with compassion always. Thank you.

I am thankful for the great abundances I have in my life. Everything is in abundance and nothing is ever short. For that,  am so thankful for your blessings. I have an abundance of food, clothes, roofs over my head, money, friends, love, opportunities, great experiences..... everything in abundance! I am so blessed indeed! Please continue blessing me and guiding me to share all of my abundances and privileges with those who aren't as privileged as I. Thank you.

I am thankful for having an able-body to do what I wish, to train, to enjoy, to think...... I am very very extremely blessed. I know that. Thank you. Please continue guiding me and blessing me to always have great health. But I would also like to pray that my family and loved ones are all always safe, soumd and healthy too and free from harm and hurt and live long and prosperous lives. Thank you.

Please do continue showing me your blessings and guidance in helping me become a better person in every way possible. Please show me signs and please give me reminders should I forget. Thank you.

I couldn't ask for more because I am so blessed. I know that. Just that, we all always ask for more anyway. And I hpe that is not wrong.

Thank you

Eileen

 

5th February 2013

Dearest LB & GY,

Thank you for a blessed dragon year and taking care of us all - myself, my family, my loved ones.

Please continue blessing and guiding us to yet another great year for all of us in this new year of the Snake. Thank you.

Please bless my Por Por's soul and let her be reunited with my Kung Kung and may the both of the gain eternal bliss. Thank you.

Thank you for blessing my husband and myself with great opportunities here in YG. Please continue blessing and guiding us and let us both get the big break that we've been waiting for. Please also bless and guide us so that everything goes smoothly for us in this journey. Thank you.

I am continuously thankful and grateful for a life that has treated me and all my loved ones very well. I am thankful for being such a privileged kid with so much great abundances in my life. I am thankful for the love, opportunities and great experiences. I am thankful for the food on my table, clothes on my back and roofs over my head. I am thankful that all my prayers are always heard and answered. I know I am a lucky and blessed child. Life is great indeed.

I pray that my family - both immediate and extended, my loved ones, my friends and all those in need are always safe, sound and healthy and that they all live long and prosperous lives. I pray that they are always happy and everything goes smoothly for them all. I pray also that they always enjoy all of life's greatest moments and pleasures. Thank you.

I pray that my husband's career continues sailing smoothly for him and that he gets financial growth, career advancements and great opportunities from everywhere. I pray that with your blessings and guidance, everything goes perfectly well for him at HTC and he gets the big break that he's been waiting for. I pray also that with your blessings and guidance, he is inspired to achieve all of his dreams. Thank you.

I pray that all of my businesses continue flourishing financially and growing successfully within this year and that all projects under each individual business are planned perfectly, implemented successfully and executed beautifully. I pray that my communication and understanding with all my clients are great and smooth always. I pray also that all the different partners that I work with continue working cohesively together as a team and support one another unconditionally towards achieving our goals and that we all reap the financial rewards of our efforts and passion within this year. Thank you.

I pray that the children at HT, LF, HH and NM are always surrounded by love, joy and happiness and that they all grow up strong, healthy and to be wonderful and inspiring people. I pray that they always enjoy all of life's greatest moments and adventures. I pray also for your continuous guidance and blessings in helping me in my commitment to help these kids have a better future. Thank you.

I pray for your continous blessings and guidance in helping me become a better person - kinder, more compassionate, more patient, more understanding, more inspiring, one who thinks good, does good and feels good always. I pray for your guidance in helping me gain clarity and wisdom in making the best and rightest decisions for all of my endeavours and stay true to myself. I pray also for your blessings and guidance in helping me stay focused, be at peace and calm, stay positive and have unwavering faith. Thank you.

I pray for the world to be a better place and for humankind to grow kinder and more compassionate everyday.

Thank you.

Eileen